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apparently

blogging is becoming trendy upon the final (and also first) frontier -- teenagers. oh wait. didn't this happen in 2005? it's pretty funny that everyone seems to be retreating by choice back to a time when we were too spastic and retarded for social netwroking and hence, it did not exist. really, it just furthers the idea that i've already entertained for several years that people are infinitely children. it makes perfect sense -- it's not like we stop learning things, ever.

toady was really weird. my ex-best friend assaulted me. i have more to say about both of these things but my head is spinning too fast. i'm trying to find the pieces of my necklace that she destroyed.

tiny ghost

my heart is on my palms
but you wear yours on your small finger
i build a nest with my qualms
curling up while dreams of you linger

i'm only alone in spirit
following a ghost-deer's footprint
while the leaves whisper thoughts i've never had

moving inside, small bells
tinkle tinny while i'm missing you
standing in the spot where i'm used to
now you speak in words i can't spell

can you do me favors?
i know you could wrap both legs so close
around your head and skinny shoulders
but now you don't think so to both

i'm only alone in spirit
following a ghost-deer's footprint
while the leaves whisper thoughts i've never had

so

As you guys have probably noticed, I never write "stuff" stuff on my blog. Like narrative and real-people dialogue etc. This is probably because nobody knows about it. Yet. There is some shit on here that doesn't exist anywhere else, as well as some shit that only existed other places before i brought it here. I have some thoughts about some things, like telling the internet i'm alive, even though probably the only person who would ever read it anyway is gabby, but even she doesn't know about this yet. Mostly what has inspired me to write like i'm in a letter is the deerhunter blog because bradford cox is generally amazing and has shown me (a thing that i already knew --) that it's wonderful to hear rational insights into people's heads as well as their convoluted self-created ones. I dunno. If there's anybody out there, get at me.

someday i'll have the strength and courage to get all multimedia and expressive and shit but who knows, it could take years.

talking to nothingness rules. goodnight.